NJ63

May 31, 2005 (Tuesday)

I had a sort of lengthy conversation with Johnathon and then Labyrinth last night. It was about my feelings for
the dreamwalker I saw at the convention.

We talked about how I had to be careful and all that and I agreed. And then he talked about how if I'd ever
mentioned this to people via, say, a blog or Johnathon's comic, I might get some reactions that I would not
expect.

Labyrinth said they'd range from outright hate mail to people who "knew" what I was talking about but weren't
walkers at all. He told me there were very few of them out there and that Johnathon and I were able to come
together in such a way that we did not cancel each other out was a miracle in itself.

But others? There are very few. He said something like eleven on the entire planet. Can you imagine? Only
eleven? The chances of three of us being at the same place (the convention) was astronomical. I'm glad I didn't
go up and touch him in any way. And that we did not introduce ourselves.

The whole "cancel each other out" thing scares the hell out of me. I'd already lost Johnathon for close to a
year--I don't know if I could stand another shock.

Labyrinth was very sad for us. "You could have been very good friends...but the price."

I didn't want that. I'd already forgotten. Let my friends down. I was just remembering. I didn't want to lose that
all over again.

So we're letting it go.

Fleur was very supportive. She'd seen my reaction to him. The pull. She could practically feel it.

I've just been informed that I'm not mentioning Fleur as a "Dreamwalker." My bad. She is. But she's gone
walking because of her proximity to Johnathon and I. We're catalysts. It's not something she would have done
on her own. That sounds pompous doesn't it? I'm only writing this because it is what I was told.

However, it IS very interesting. I mean, are there specific people who can be taught Dreamwalking?

It's all so interesting. But then again, I...we, have to be SO careful. So careful.